This is what is going on in my head today (lately). I won't lie, I have been overwhelmed/stressed with the day to day demands of being a SAHM. Now, I wouldn't trade it for the world to be able to stay home with my girls. I wouldn't go to work right now if you paid me (ha ha!). I think I have been feeling defeated lately because I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and it's not getting brighter fast enough. Meaning- a full night of sleep is oh.... so...... close! Getting stuff done in the kitchen without a baby hanging on my legs is oh... so.... close! Not having to carry a baby on my hip while we are out is oh... so.... close! I love my little Ellie bear and I do cherish her baby days and just kiss those chubby baby cheeks all day, but I'm exhausted. . It's not just the baby phase that exhausts me. It is the 2 year old stage too. Not listening, whining, potty training, never been much a sleeper, etc. I know I need to suck it up and regroup and I'm not the only SAHM out there that also does it every single day who doesn't complain (publicly). There are more good moments than bad and I just need to shake that whoa is me mindset. I have had the opportunity to get out without the girls lately. I went out to eat with my SIL's one evening, I got an hour massage last weekend (heaven!) and have been to bible study two weeks in a row at 1 1/2 hrs each. I was okay without having me time with Whitney, but with two, whew!, I sure need it and feel great after I get it. Call me a whimp, I don't care, that's how I feel right now and I know it will get easier. I am grateful for being able to stay home and know many moms would stay home if they had the opportunity. I can vent, can't I?
As for my breastfeeding update... I will go to 8 months because that is only two weeks away now. My long term goal is to make it 10 months. That will put us literally right before Christmas and before Wade will have to leave in January. I'm holding this goal loosely, but I think I can do it.
I Am Coming to See You!!
5 months ago